flashback

taking a walk, seabrook, TX

today was the last work day @ nasa. tomorrow is the final presentation and wrap up of everything we've been doing the past... wow 5 and a half weeks.
making my last dinner in texas, i stuffed all the food i could get from the remainder of the stuff we had left. i knew it was too much food to start out with, but of course i always just, eat it all anyways. feeling almost sick afterwards, i knew it was already dark outside to run, so instead i decided to grab my camera and walk around the neighborhood. it'll be my last chance to absorb all the last bits of seabrook, texas...
the rain had passed by last night, the day had been humid, but comforting with cool breeze, kind of reminding me of seattle. i liked it. my hair got sticky to my face so i pulled up my hood, but now it was almost too warm. ignoring the weird weather, i looked up and the clouds were clearing up as it passed the moonlight. i barely took my camera out in time to capture the last glimpse of light before it hid itself again behind the layered dark fog. it was too dark to be able to see the neighborhood, so i just walked to the playground. sat down on the crooked bench and listened to few songs. realized i'd never be able to sit in that spot probably ever again for the rest of my life. once i leave it tonight, i'll never see it again. will i remember it? will i miss it? it's always this kind of stupid worries that gets me. will i ever be able to come back? what will bring me back here? i'll just keep on moving on, to another place, leaving behind another person, another cherishable memory. no matter how bad the experience was here, how horrible the people might have been, i know i'll look back one day and find one reason to want to be here again.

but, for now, i'm outta here...
providence, here i come~
now i have the 5 and a half weeks worth of catching up to do. no, more like 2 months, since i haven't seen everyone since last year... have to pretend like i've been there all along. wednesday i'll be sleeping in my bed, thursdays i'll be @ jason mraz concert in kingston, friday i'll be back playing keyboard, saturday it'll be early praise practice (oh and the depressing single awareness day, i'm sure a box of chocolate will be my lover for that day), sunday i'll be back in korean school, monday it'll be the first day of a new semester. like i said, like i've been there, all along.