Moving out Moving in Moving on...

old room in brighton, MA

It might just be a coincident but our move date got sandwiched between the biggest Boston snow storms. We were snowed in, just a few days before the big move, forcing us to stay home from work and pack more of our lives into boxes. And just another couple days later here I am fighting through the powdery, icy, now slushy snow during already uncomfortable route home.
It forces me to stay home and unpack now that I don't wanna face the horrible weather.
Well not so much a coicident as an after thought... I guess it gives me reasons to get settled in. Maybe it's the new apartment and the huge blank space with unopened boxes I'm living at... But I feel the urge to create something, fill bits by bits to reorganize my things and showcase them for myself for what they're worth. For all this time they missed their moment to shine... I welcome you all to your new place!

Starry Starry Night Sky

on my way home, somerville, MA

Now here in Boston, it's a start of another new year, my first winter in Boston.

I look back at last year and I realize time quickily becomes my past and all the big and little things that was part of it too. What once was catastrophic, world ending, slow despairing moments of my life is long gone, and I find myself totally adjusted and moved on as if I've lived here, like this, since before. While in reality, I'm brand new to this.

I come out of my office, shouting out "Good night!" to everyone with a relief of another full day at work, walk out into the darkness, through the shortly daunting tunnel under the railroad tracks and mindlessly follow up the road to the local bus station around the corner. As I'm about to to turn the corner, I finally take the time to look up. Look right, darkness. Look left, a glimpse of sunlight is still lingering. I could still see the little hint of the orangy yellow at the bottom of the sky, and the cresent of the moon so crisp. I knew I had to capture it and capture it quickily, because in a few seconds, I would've missed it... as it always happen.

I regret that I didn't capture those momentary moments of myself as vividly as I experienced them. The impatient anger and the helplessness of myself unimaginable to me now. When I had the time to express it in other means than like boring words I do now to try recreate and remember about how it all happened all over again. It's scary to think that I turn out to be the consequent of my present consequences... karma?

Well all this mind ponder happened during the 5 min walk to the bus stop, just staring up at the starry starry night sky. Just sharing.

new launch

new launch:

www.cathyhan.com

in the process of construction.
but still check it out!

french dreams

i dreamed in french these couple of days.
it been very stressful.

i found a very subtlely beautiful and funny clip :)
these things make my day.



france is a must.

jason mraz live in RI

jason mraz concert, kingston, RI

MRAZ night!

it was just as i imagined.

i loved it.

i love his... voice, articulations, melodies.

i guess mostly it was the fact that his live music seemed flawless and ever more so real, so far away on stage, but still so close singing right there in front of me.

live, sweet voice just melts my soul away.

and as he shared, for this valentine's day, i will love myself :)

flashback

taking a walk, seabrook, TX

today was the last work day @ nasa. tomorrow is the final presentation and wrap up of everything we've been doing the past... wow 5 and a half weeks.
making my last dinner in texas, i stuffed all the food i could get from the remainder of the stuff we had left. i knew it was too much food to start out with, but of course i always just, eat it all anyways. feeling almost sick afterwards, i knew it was already dark outside to run, so instead i decided to grab my camera and walk around the neighborhood. it'll be my last chance to absorb all the last bits of seabrook, texas...
the rain had passed by last night, the day had been humid, but comforting with cool breeze, kind of reminding me of seattle. i liked it. my hair got sticky to my face so i pulled up my hood, but now it was almost too warm. ignoring the weird weather, i looked up and the clouds were clearing up as it passed the moonlight. i barely took my camera out in time to capture the last glimpse of light before it hid itself again behind the layered dark fog. it was too dark to be able to see the neighborhood, so i just walked to the playground. sat down on the crooked bench and listened to few songs. realized i'd never be able to sit in that spot probably ever again for the rest of my life. once i leave it tonight, i'll never see it again. will i remember it? will i miss it? it's always this kind of stupid worries that gets me. will i ever be able to come back? what will bring me back here? i'll just keep on moving on, to another place, leaving behind another person, another cherishable memory. no matter how bad the experience was here, how horrible the people might have been, i know i'll look back one day and find one reason to want to be here again.

but, for now, i'm outta here...
providence, here i come~
now i have the 5 and a half weeks worth of catching up to do. no, more like 2 months, since i haven't seen everyone since last year... have to pretend like i've been there all along. wednesday i'll be sleeping in my bed, thursdays i'll be @ jason mraz concert in kingston, friday i'll be back playing keyboard, saturday it'll be early praise practice (oh and the depressing single awareness day, i'm sure a box of chocolate will be my lover for that day), sunday i'll be back in korean school, monday it'll be the first day of a new semester. like i said, like i've been there, all along.

inside the moon rover

nasa johnson space center, houston, TX

so... today was by far the coolest day of my nasa internship, so far.

after getting the people in the spacesuits to test our designs with the rover, we got to inside and check it out for ourselves!
so... tell me, whether that's so freaking cool or freaking awesome.

i say that's freaking bad awsss...